Transition...

How different it is waking up 'here' rather than 'there'...
From one airport to another and my whole world has changed... my bed, the weather, the culture, the friends, the pavements, the people, the food, the communication, the way people see and think of me, the expectations or lack thereof... etc. It's all different.

I have laid all that I have lived for in the last 5 years down... and I find myself  in a season of transition. How long it is going to last I don't know but I have left everything I have done in another country and I find myself with nothing except an application for the Job Center and job applications in front of my eyes. What am I supposed to be doing... What am I supposed to be doing over here... What kind of person do I have to be in order to 'fit in'.... I can only be the same person...even if that means I don't end up fitting in...
My qualifications don't fit into the normal type of work you find on the work market... I have more life experience than work experience...but life experience that would be seen as work experience had there have been a certificate involved...but there isn't so you can't only put that on paper...In my heart I am a missionary...I have experience...I don't get a degree or certificate in that nor have I received a salary or recognition...I receive other things that are not seen as job application material but are essential to my life but not in the eyes of others or to the person employing people but could possibly be just as precious or even more important than any certificate... These experiences have changed and shaped my life for the future and have equipped me so much...but that won't get me a job easily...

What are we putting all the importance on these days...
Even in the church .... what are we putting the importance on these days...
What 'qualifies' us?   What sacrifices must we make or what must we start doing in order to 'fit in'... How and why do we measure the importance of a  life..."Seeing is believing"....but what if you don't go and see...what happens then...?
How are we measuring the importance of a life....because that is what is happening isn't it...whether we admit it or not...but let's be honest it's easy to do...but it's an attitude that is possible to change...

As I look back at past uncertainties in my life and remind myself of how God was present and so faithful... I am relieved to know that there is someone out there who has my life in their hands and will provide the best for me... and will guide my steps... and who does see me for who I really am... and who loves me for who I am and who will take me to the next season because I have allowed Him to.  I have laid it in front of Him and I know that He will make it all into something beautiful...and lead me onto the next leg of the journey...

We are all on our own journeys that mix into others all the time... When that happens... are we going to prove ourselves to be a big fat obstacle on the path of another... or are we going to prove ourselves to be a fellow traveller who guides, helps, encourages and tries to make that little bit of journey easier and enjoyable and beneficial to all...

"Who we are isn't what we do, it's who we are that compels us to do what we do!"
Gary Morgan

We need to remember who we really are... wherever we are... and what and who we are living for...