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The truth is that for the last few weeks since plans had changed and Micronesia was no longer the goal, I was freaking out a little. Never have I been in such a situation as far as I can remember, where I really had no idea what to do at all... I often don’t know what is going to happen next but I know the step I am supposed to be taking in the present... but this time it was just...nothing ...nothing in the present and nothing in the near future.. . it was in a way quite scary.  The only thing I knew and was telling myself over and over again that I could trust God and  that I had made the right decision...of course I managed to freak out quite routinely but in the unknown, the disappointment I knew that God wouldn't fail me..  what would come next though, I had no idea whatsoever...

UNTIL...

About 2 weeks ago...  I suddenly had an urgency to answer a question God was asking me... I had thought about it quite a few years ago but pursued other things instead and then a few weeks ago I was thinking about it again a bit before but not really seriously as something to do now necessarily...   

God was asking me if I would be a midwife.

 Now, it wasn't just like a question thrown in the air, I literally just couldn't think of anything else for two days and I knew I had to make a decision there and then.  There was a huge urgency about it. 

So on the Thursday I said yes to God and rang up the College here after looking up certain things on the internet and not having a clue really.  The woman on the other side told me that I was cutting it a bit fine and that I should come in the next morning.  So I went in on the Friday and ended up filling an application, passing a test, passing an interview, getting a conditional offer and then getting a permanent offer which I accepted and I also got accepted for a loan and all this on the Friday morning. It just so happened that enrolment was on the following Monday!! Hence the urgency. Had it been any later, I would have had to wait a whole year for the next opportunity!! God really knows what he is doing! 

I have no idea about the British system or all the ins and outs of the course and things that I would have known about had I have studied in Britain.  When I said yes to God for doing the course I was expecting to have to take out loans for this Nursing and Midwifery access course and then for the three following years of university.  This week I learnt that the loan that I took out for this course disappears when you graduate university and the fees for the three years at university are actually paid for because for some reason it is!! So I have just been overwhelmed with everything just ‘going right’!!

As soon as I said yes to God it was like I suddenly saw God’s strategy and I just started dreaming about it all and what being a midwife means in my missionary life and getting so so excited!!  I can go everywhere... I have a ‘valid’ reason to be in places, I will be able to help improve the quality of life of the places I go to, I will be able to help save lives of babies and women, I will have this key that will allow me to go to the most difficult and un-reached places and take God with me...as it just so happens that women have children...everywhere!! :)  It’s really amazing all that God is showing me for the future. I am very excited and I could never have planned all of this myself. 

This year's course isn't particularly an easy one and there is a lot of work and a lot of competition to get into the universities but I know that this is where God wants me and I will do my best and he will do the rest. 

I already started my first week and I am really enjoying it. I have already got a small group of friends and I think that it's going to be an amazing year with them.  The course is on Mondays and Tuesdays and a lot of homework and studying the other days though I am still trying to find a job!

So as usual, God knows what he is doing!   I was telling a friend the other day (and also reassuring myself in the process) to just trust God and just believe that he has something prepared and ready for us and that we shouldn't  panic because in hindsight we might feel a little silly because God is always faithful...and we can hope in him because he never fails...

I'm really just so amazed at how God really does keep his promises... I know that obedience opens doors, that when you sow you reap but I will always be amazed at how much more God blesses us, loves us, knows what is best for us...and how he really does guide our paths... :)